3 A.M.

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Hey there! Remember, it’s absolutely okay to be broken and not being able to cope up with it. It’s okay to burst out crying when you need to hold on to your tears the most. It’s okay to be sad for days and weeks, and to be all by yourself for a while. But hey, it’s not at all okay not to let go off the pain and holding onto it for so long that it makes a home inside your heart and starts tearing you up into bits and pieces from inside and starts feeding off of you. Even before this starts happening to you, catch hold of that one person you believe in with all your heart and soul, and tell them how you feel. Tell them about all your fears and insecurities. Because darling, ask me how it feels to bury all your pains inside your chest as they cut through your body and leave you completely scarred in and out. Ask me how it feels not to have that one person I’d put all my faith into and tell them about all my fears that haunt me every night at 3 a.m. when everyone else is talking to their someone about love, life, fear, pain and passion. Ask me how it feels to be fighting all my demons all by myself after I rescue other people from theirs. Ask me how it feels to go sleepless for several nights in a row when you are too tired to fight, but that’s the only ultimate choice you are left with. And ask me how it feels to be a 3 a.m. friend to many and not having a single one for myself.
Life out there is really tough, my friend. And for that, all that you ever need to remember is to never stop believing in yourself. And to never underestimate someone’s love for you. For, if they are ready to fight your demons at hand in the darkest hour of the night, they would probably do anything in this world for you.

//•• Lost And Found ••//

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I still feel a rush in my veins and my blood turns into water everytime I see you. I feel an excruciating pain in my chest, as if someone is crushing my rib cage all at once. Everything has changed since the day you have left. But all it takes is a single glance of your pretty face to bring back a thousand memories that we have left behind. All those long lost memories seem so fresh that they play in my head as if it was just yesterday. I do not hate you for anything. Neither am I mad at you. I’m just a little upset with myself for putting all my faith in someone so blindly. But I’m really that glad you made your choices. Because now, even after all the pains I go through at every single glance of you, I have a thin faded smile on my face knowing that I would no more be the reason to your sadness. I lost you and you lost me. But darling, that’s not even important. The only thing that’s important is that I found myself in the process of losing you.

Tu kyu chala aaya…💔

Sab bhulne laga tha main, aur jeene laga tha main..
Ho gayi thi aadat iss akele pan ki mujhe..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Bharne lage they ye zakhm ab tere diye hue saare,
Jee raha tha bas teri yaadon ke sahare..
Aankhein bhi ab rona bhul chuki thi,
Tere aane ke sapne sanjona bhul chuki thi..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Intezaar kiya karta tha tera din raat,
Bhulaye nahi bhuli jaati thi teri har baat..
Aankhein band karte hi tera chehra nazar aata,
Teri yaadon ke aage khudko har dam bebas main paata..
Bohot mushkil se teri yaado ko maine dafnaya tha,
Nayi zindagi basane ka ek chhota khwaab sajaya tha..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Aaj tu mere saamne hai, aur main khamosh hi khada hu,
Zindagi ki raah me bohot uljha pada hu..
Pyar hai tujhse ab bhi, lekin keh nahi sakta,
Tere bin aaj bhi ek pal main reh nahi sakta..
Tu kareeb hai mere kyuki kismat me likha ho kar rehta hai,
Bohot kuch hai kehne ko, lekin ab bhi dil ye hi kehta hai..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya..

Forgive Me!

Forgive me for loving you more than a lover..
Forgive me for trying not to give up on you when I had lost all the reasons to keep holding on to you..
Forgive me for trying to take your hand and take you out of the dark..
Forgive me for trying to fix your life when I was broken myself..
Forgive me for trying to save you from being terribly depressed..
Forgive me for staying up late at nights and talking to you just because you needed someone to talk to..
Forgive me for finding my happiness in yours..
Forgive me for making you believe how beautiful you are..
Forgive me for reminding you, your self worth and how much more you deserve from this life every single second..
Forgive me for knowing what you need more than anyone else would ever do..

Forgive me!
Please forgive me for I understood what you always wanted but yet failed to understand that you never wanted it from ME!