3 A.M.

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Hey there! Remember, it’s absolutely okay to be broken and not being able to cope up with it. It’s okay to burst out crying when you need to hold on to your tears the most. It’s okay to be sad for days and weeks, and to be all by yourself for a while. But hey, it’s not at all okay not to let go off the pain and holding onto it for so long that it makes a home inside your heart and starts tearing you up into bits and pieces from inside and starts feeding off of you. Even before this starts happening to you, catch hold of that one person you believe in with all your heart and soul, and tell them how you feel. Tell them about all your fears and insecurities. Because darling, ask me how it feels to bury all your pains inside your chest as they cut through your body and leave you completely scarred in and out. Ask me how it feels not to have that one person I’d put all my faith into and tell them about all my fears that haunt me every night at 3 a.m. when everyone else is talking to their someone about love, life, fear, pain and passion. Ask me how it feels to be fighting all my demons all by myself after I rescue other people from theirs. Ask me how it feels to go sleepless for several nights in a row when you are too tired to fight, but that’s the only ultimate choice you are left with. And ask me how it feels to be a 3 a.m. friend to many and not having a single one for myself.
Life out there is really tough, my friend. And for that, all that you ever need to remember is to never stop believing in yourself. And to never underestimate someone’s love for you. For, if they are ready to fight your demons at hand in the darkest hour of the night, they would probably do anything in this world for you.

//•• I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore ••//


I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore. But it’ll always be my favourite place. That’s where it all started and that’s exactly where it all ended. I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore, for, getting over you took me going through an excruciating pain and now that I’m doing fine, I’m afraid to fall for you all over again. I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore, because we’ve been there so many times that every fucking coffee mug they own has been on our table once atleast and I’m trying really hard to forget how your lips tasted. I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore, because more than the coffee they served, I loved the feeling of the aroma of your scent slowly running down my veins everytime we met. And that scent still fucking exists in the air of that coffee shop that now suffocates. I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore, because that’s the place I opened up to someone about my insecurities and fears for the first time, and now if I step into that place again, I fear I may end up drink dialling you and telling you that I was never over you and I’ll never be, and how much it aches not to have you here anymore. I don’t go to that coffee shop anymore, because I know that you still visit there everyday. Not alone, but just without me. 🙂

Tu kyu chala aaya…💔

Sab bhulne laga tha main, aur jeene laga tha main..
Ho gayi thi aadat iss akele pan ki mujhe..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Bharne lage they ye zakhm ab tere diye hue saare,
Jee raha tha bas teri yaadon ke sahare..
Aankhein bhi ab rona bhul chuki thi,
Tere aane ke sapne sanjona bhul chuki thi..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Intezaar kiya karta tha tera din raat,
Bhulaye nahi bhuli jaati thi teri har baat..
Aankhein band karte hi tera chehra nazar aata,
Teri yaadon ke aage khudko har dam bebas main paata..
Bohot mushkil se teri yaado ko maine dafnaya tha,
Nayi zindagi basane ka ek chhota khwaab sajaya tha..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya…

Aaj tu mere saamne hai, aur main khamosh hi khada hu,
Zindagi ki raah me bohot uljha pada hu..
Pyar hai tujhse ab bhi, lekin keh nahi sakta,
Tere bin aaj bhi ek pal main reh nahi sakta..
Tu kareeb hai mere kyuki kismat me likha ho kar rehta hai,
Bohot kuch hai kehne ko, lekin ab bhi dil ye hi kehta hai..
Aise mein phir tu kyu chala aaya…
Zindagi mein tu meri, rang kyu le aaya..